Banner Year (song + MV)

In 2021, I had the biggest year of my creative life (still quite small). I achieved goals set (released my first album) and exceeded expectations of myself. I also had the severest anxiety I've had in over 12 years and a blanket, stubborn depression. It’s a confusing result for working up the courage to share yourself honestly in song, to speak your personal language as articulately as you can, and be humbled by conditions you’ve worked hard to improve. Still, it’s no defeat to take a knee and let that be. This song captures a stream of contemplation that I find somewhat comforting, if not conclusive. It's a moving equation of balance and I am doing the maths. I'll keep doing them, too. The alternative of not participating at all is a place I've already been and I will not return there. I hope this makes sense but even then, this is me expressing myself so that I can understand myself, at the first. So, I keep going.

Thank you for reading this and thank you for listening to my music.

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Song and video by Séamus Scanlan

Song mixed by E.M. Hudson

Video shot by Angellyne De Perio

Special thanks to Michelle Ables, Alex Navarro and Randy Thomas